Try to make a promise

A week ago, as usual, I sit in front of my desktop at work when suddenly my youtube playlist started to play Jogjakarta, a song by Kla Project. My memories went back to some days before when mbak Karlina, mbak Cesa, mbak Ikis, and Ilham were playing the accoustic version of this song in front of Sri Sultan Hamengkubuwono X and us, fellow members of PK 28 LPDP.

Well that paragraph above isnt quite my style to start a post, dont you think. If someone ever track back my blog, sure he/she will be confuse on what the hell is she talking about, suddenly jump from last year post about weekend at sofy's to current mellow dramatic mood I have for almost a week. So let me apologize first, for being very lazy to keep this platform alive.. too many things happened and my weekend run too fast. Earlier this year I have my resolution to write at least once a month here, but here goes my bullshit again *sorry. I ve been caught up on some errands, like overtime at work which is almost like everyday (yes, Im in even on weekend sometimes) also a miracle came and I am now officially LPDP awardee #dreamcometrue. This afternoon I installed blogger app on my mobile phone and make a promise to myself that I will try regularly post things here. There are already a queue on my drafts (in my mind palace, not on my blogspot dashboard though) about posts I had to write:

1. Travelling to Sawarna, Banten

2. Travelling to Gn Padang, Cianjur

3. LPDP dedication post, esp for PK 28

it may seem like a brag but I just know those things above really worth to share :)

So what about now? What will I talk in this almost useless post? My feelings as usual ofc bcs thats what blogging for. Lol. No kidding but hey, at this moment I feel grateful to stand on corner of jakarta-bogor commuter line while thinking about life. Yes life can be so cruel and wasting time to contemplate about it too much but if you ever feel like crap, believe me it will all pass. I dont want to write something too depressing or advice-like now but nowadays I learn how to appreciate myself bcs usually when something unfortunate happen to me, even just a bit, I will act like drama queen (maybe ppl around it dont see it but heck yeah I am full of life drama inward). Now, when something happen, whether it is good or bad, I try to accept it carefully.. thinking when I have something good, there are many people out there who have greater one so no need to show off and when something unlucky came in my life, I remind myself that others might have much troubled problems than me so there is definitely no need to freak out. Sometimes, appreciate yourself is something we need (for people who always think they are the most unlucky creature with no achievement, like me hahahah). Life is not as bad as we think. God will never give us something we can not bear :)

And uh it is a lot of words up there compared to what I intended to write *pardon me, but I am ready to write again (I hope)

Lotta love,

Noya