Growing up is not the problem

Forgetting is.

Some people might recognize this line along The Little Prince the movie, an animation works released last year based on the same titled novel. Truthfully, I have not read the book yet (I'll add it to my book's bucketlist) but after I watched this adaptation, and of course lurking on all those reviews, it seems that I should read one. Funny how I used to consider myself as book worm when there are just (very) few numbers of books stayed in my memory. The following post still revolves around the same theme of coping with adult life, which still take a form of big question mark that randomly pops during daydream. 

This barely new year of 2016 went well so far, at least for my movie quality time. I am now already on 18th in my movie list despite the start of school's third period a week ago. Somehow, the assignments are not killing me yet. The Little Prince is the latest movie I just watched today. As someone who didn't read the book, I enjoyed this animation that full of deep symbolism regarding one journey's to grow up. Well maybe not exactly defining the process you went through from child, teenager, then adult era; Nevertheless, toward the end of the movie, many elements of this movie just hit me hard within the reality realm, i.e. the restless and unprepared feeling to face adult-real-world. I know people get bored when I told them about this dubious theme of so called real world but today, at least, I got new input regarding this matter. One from this movie and other from my fully respected friend, Muharrom. 

(spoiler alert). At a brief moment after finishing the movie, people might be reminded of how tough adult life can be, as people get this idea from the movie that adult is created (or shaped) in a certain way which made them forget everything precious from childhood memories. Not to mention The Mother character who seemed a bit pushover with her perfect planning. I also agree with this opinion, because myself indeed having hard time accepting grown up's life path. But then I texted Muha, it was not 100% random because yesterday we dwelt upon our college life whatsoever (maybe because we were both feel so old and tired and sudden reminiscence afloat). I always believe him to give me advice, read: serious advice for life, hence I told that I just saw The Little Prince. Of course he had watched it and of course he had different idea on perceiving the movie. Instead, he adores The Little Girl and The Mother during their perfect and tight scheduled days.

Cool, mature, independent, problem solver, neat, never give up.. everything great about that little girl but those all ruined when she meets the neighbor grandpa, I was sad 

Creativity, dream, hobby, curiosity.. can stay as the child fragments of you but be like an adult when you have to be autonomous, rational, responsible.. 

I really don't know if I translate this in a right way, sorry Muha! Unsurprisingly, it is on our nature to continue a movie talk to a 'future' kind of conversation. Both of us (or maybe just me, actually) are go-with-the-flow-people which he said it made us slower than others to embrace the life learning. He then managed to continuously stabbed me with his thoughts (in a good way), like why can't I state a concrete purpose for my future; or successfully made me aware of an urgent need for a mentor I never have. Always a mind and heart opener, talking with him hahaha *empty laugh.

In the end, we came to the conclusion that I am indeed an effortlessly happy person who life her days without expectation, target, and evaluation *again empty laugh. Believe me, I am working on this attitude though. Well again, let us all pray to be useful creatures in our own way. I hate to always close a post with such cliche but what can I do, I have a cliche life ;) 

Warm hug (still in this cold windy weather),

Noya

P.S. I should really searching for a mentor

You in the trap

Hello 2016!

For some days recently, a sudden urge to write a post in this blog just appeared. Not sure why, but I guess it has something to do with my inward state (one of my besties has just married and another one was engaged yesterday), a gift I received from Hanna, and lastly the lingering feeling of my recent trip to Eastern Europe. It is not that I excessively adore the Budapest-Wien-Prague-Warszaw days yet that trip was somehow left a certain mixed feeling until now (or.. I am just being drama queen again).

Well, some of pictures above may seem like a distraction to balance what will be writen in the following. It will be a heavy too-much-feeling type of post with all the things centered around me. As usual. So what my life been up to? College? Yes ofcourse. Actually, the previous period was not that scary with all the assignment and everything. Eventhough my friend and I got 5.5 for Sustainability Science final paper but generally it went well. I am now going to start a new period, the third period which means entering 3/4 of my first year college life where up to this point I still had no idea what to do for my thesis, so classic right?  Last night, when I was actually prepared to read some material for the new course, I ended up in an online streaming website, watching Cheese in The Trap, yes that korean drama people recently hyped for. It was unintentional but it is interesting enough to make me stay awake until 5.00 AM and sleep like dead person until noon. That drama was not that special but some of the scenes are truly relatable, well because it depicts the life of Hong Seol, a 'normal' college student with her deadweight assignment. This is the first time I watched such drama that describes such rather right ambiance of a university daily struggle (compared to other makjang with focus only on the love-life). As a result, you might guess it already, I will dwell in this vibe of drama plot for a while.. imagining my days ahead with 'what if' condition. Anyway, the next course will demand such group cooperativeness (like one of Hong Seol case which ended with D as final grade *sigh) and quite big workload to investigate and analyse things, definitely make me shudder. But in the other side, I was wondering why I already complained about this kind of 'small' task when anyone else accomplished much bigger 'real' achievement as what I call 'pemuda harapan bangsa Indonesia', and here it is again, life is flowing okay but then I start searching for ripples lol. I should stop think only, need to take action instead, right?

Ok then, let me embrace the new period lightheartedly *hwaiting*

XOXO,
Noya

P.S. Today's hot topic is apparently the halftime show of 50th Super Bowl with Coldplay, Beyonce, and Bruno Mars. Hence, my blanket will be full of tears again tonight (ehm, maybe not tears but more like troubled feelings). Also, WINNER's Baby Baby will always be the death of me. 
P.P.S. I reread what I write above, it seems this post actually has no objectives dont you think? Hah, like I ever had one.